Disappointed

I am feeling super disappointed right now because last night around 7:30 I got a phone call from my new doctors office informing me that my surgery that was scheduled this upcoming Monday has been canceled. I had just gotten the confirmation call a few hours earlier. Apparently the doctor was called to testify at a trial that day, and therefore had to cancel his surgeries. There were 2 other doctors willing to do my case 3rd on their schedule that day, however that was at 4pm if they are running on time. Meaning if all went perfectly, the earliest I would be out would be 10pm and then have another 3 hour drive home...It just wasn't going to work for us. And with the holiday weekend, all the offices were closed today, so I have to wait until Monday to try and reschedule :(
I'm really sad about it all, because this has become such a long journey for me. I've been dealing with this for most of my life, and finally got diagnosed back in March. I thought I was going to be "fixed" in May, and again in June...and now I have no idea when it will finally happen. And at that-if they can even be successful in completing the surgery! My emotions have been on such a roller coaster since my first meeting with the doctors, and I have been under a lot of stress with this as well as other things going on in our lives that I just feel like I just want to shut down for awhile and reboot in about 3 years!
I know everything happens for a reason, and in the end it will all work out. It's just really hard sometimes to give up our "control" and let things happen as their meant to. I'm trying hard not to stress about the schedule, as ours is getting pretty full these next few months, and I know the doctor has a full schedule as well. I know it will get done eventually. I just really wanted this to be all over before the summer really started and allow myself to kick things into gear. Now it looks like it will be the end of the summer at best before I get in...
Like I said, I'm just sad and disappointed. But I have had a lot of support from my family and friends, and I wanted to thank you all for that! You all mean the world to me, and I would not be able to get through all this if it wasn't for all of you...you are my rock and support and I love you all so much!
I'll keep you all posted when I find out more...