Feeling Defeated

I figured I would put up a quick post to keep you all updated. No Pumpkin has not arrived yet. I had a doctor's appointment yesterday, and he told me that I should sneeze and go into labor! I have progressed as much as I really can without being in active labor. So I have a feeling that when it finally does happen, it will go fairly quickly. At least I hope it does. But I also don't want it to happen too fast, so our families can make it out here in time.

But the reason I am feeling defeated is because I scheduled an induction date. I have been pretty against it from the beginning, and it sucks that one had to be scheduled just in case. I was induced with Aiden after I was 3 days post term (which is today with Pumpkin now). He did not have an easy time even though I was only in labor for 12 hours start to finish. Part of me wonders if it was because I was induced, and so I have wanted to go naturally this time around.

But it seems to be out of my hands now. We decided to give it another week, and wait until next Wed for the induction. Again, my doctor is pretty sure I will go before that-but he said that last week too! I'm dealing with being uncomfortable and trying to be patient to let Pumpkin come when it's good and ready...but I'm definately ready.

I'm sorry if this post seems redundant for some of you-but unfortunately I don't have much else to post right now. I can't really go anywhere or do anything besides the normal everyday things. Life right now seems pretty boring-the calm before the storm. The best I can do is be prepared, which I think I am.